Until then..

Grabe this summer I'm gon tour around London talaga para naman maappreciate ko this city cos like a lot of people wants to go here dahil sa historic places and sceneries, eh ako naman na 2 and a half years na here haven't been to any museums pa and stuff. Nyaha. Cos when nagpasyal ako in places such as: Buckingham Palace, Big Ben, London Bridge, never did I appreciate the view talaga. As in NR lang, na parang fine not that interesting naman eh. But now I so want to tour around London and take pictures.. Of course para din naman I'd be able to practice my photography skills. :p Haha.

Hm, now as much as possible I want to know every single thing about the place I am in. Eto kasi, I borrowed this guide book ng France eh parang I jumped in agad sa France to think na wala pa akong magandang navivisit sa London, hindi pa nga ako nakakaride sa London Eye eh. Why not take the opportunity diba? Toink.

Anyway, I'm in need of a job. Fine, I've been blabbing about this job thing for almost a year now and I still am unemployed hanggang ngayon. No one wants to hire me cos inexperienced talaga ako but siguro since I'm at the very end bit of my 1st year and sobrang competent na talaga ako with my accounting skills, baka baka lang. But I want a summer job lang talaga. SUMMER JOB cos I'm broke. Must search the WWW.

Hmmm.

These past days have been really hard for me. I don't even know if I can surpass this. I don't wanna move on kasi. Parang tanga eh no? Parang I just want to stay stuck forever although I know naman that that isn't the right thing to do, that I can't be just stuck forever.. I need to move on at least step by step, bit by bit. Am I still in denial pa ba that wala na talaga tayo? It isn't us kasi eh, it's time.. Distance. That was your point diba? Pero it's kind of hard for me to accept that eh, tipong there still are a lot of things that bothers me right now. Sobrang dami ko kelangang itanong pero hindi na siguro dapat.

But come to think of it nga naman, naging tayo 3 mos. before ako umalis for London. So little time, wrong timing sobra. Hindi natin alam eh. Hindi naman talaga natin alam, lalo na ako.

Maybe we aren't really meant to be together. Siguro way lang 'yun for you to realize that love won't give up on you, that no matter how much you have had hurt in the past, and how much people have had hurt you matutunan at matutunan mo pading magmahala ulit. Well, on my part it taught me a loooot of things, a looot of lessons since it was my first time. Basta, you made me happy and thank you for that.

We dunno what the future may bring. If it's us, then it's us. Ang mahirap nga lang kasi ay hindi talaga natin alam. And it's hard not knowing and much much harder when all you've done was umasa pero umaasa ka pala sa wala.

Yay, ewan ko na.

When would I learn how to stop?

I love you still eh. I love you talaga. And somehow I hate that I love you cos it's giving me a sobrang hard time..

Pero sabi nga ng Side A ay UNTIL THEN, edi UNTIL THEN..