This is it..

I'm gon disappear in your life starting from today.. I won't even bother you anymore.. Basta, like you never exist.. Cos it's time for me to let go of you already. Time for me to move on and leave the past behind.. I don't even know if I could do this. I mean, c'mon.. How many times have I told myself these things already? How many times that I've promised that I won't ever speak with you anymore? that I'd forget you? Oh well, I guess things are really easier said than done.. na hanggang salita lang talaga ako.. But I'll try. I'll take it one day at a time.

My gawd, ganun ba talaga kalaki impact mo sakin? It's been almost 5 months.. So tagal na. Okay. So you told me that you love me and stuff AGAIN but I didn't give you a chance to prove that to me. But I've got my reasons.. If before, I was willing as in willing to do anything for you.. na tipong I didn't really care what people would think about me cos my love for you was the only thing that mattered.. Kahit na tawagin nila akong bitch, whore or whatever who runs after guys who got a girl already.. But now I've realized that you can't just ignore what other people have got to say about you.. that you've got to think first bago magdecide.. that you shouldn't get carried away by your emotions. Plus, a lot of things have changed already.. It just doesn't feel the same way anymore and you know, DOUBTS. And gusto ko that wholeheartedly na I want to be with you talaga not just because ayokong mawala ka kaya gusto ko tayo na. I want it to last. And I think that you can't give me that.. And this SOMEONE can. You still don't seem to understand my reasons though.. Cos you only listen to yourself.. You only care about yourself.. YOUR REASONS. You actually are a bit selfish and immature. Masyado ka kasing nagmamadali.. You don't assess the situation first.. that people are gonna get hurt and stuff. When you want something, you've got to get it agad.

*sigh*

There are things that I've still got to say but I'd just rather keep them to myself. Hm, it wasn't entirely your fault though.. Madami din akong nagawa.. But it's got to stop now. I should stop blaming myself already.. Para I could start the moving on process.. And well, we'll see how things go. It's not going be easy, of course.. but I'm gon get there.

Hibernation, here I come!