Just because I'm losing doesn't mean I'm lost

//For the last time.//

Seeing that picture didn't really surprise me at all. It just got me wondering why the hell do you have to lie about it before. Why do you have to say that this someone annoy you when in fact you guys kind of have hmm, should I call it a special 'THING'?

It sucks when you know that you've done your bestest, that you've given so much effort and all that yet it still is not enough for the person. No appreciation or whatsoever at all. It feels like I just wasted all my time doing those things then I get nothing in return. I mean, okay.. Honestly, I was really expecting SOMETHING to at least happen. I was hopeful. Pero it wasn't that easy pala. Trying to win someone back is never easy at all. Especially when you are the only one who is blamed for what had happened in the past, that all that person could think of was the fact that you had hurt him not even thinking that you never meant to do it, that it was the best thing to do so that you won't hurt him even more.

I was making up for those times that I ignored you. I wanted to start over again but you didn't let me. You just didn't care. People told me that you were only taking me for granted but stubborn as I am, I didn't listen to them cos I love doing those things for you. Oh, seeing just how your face lits up is already enough for me. *Sigggghhhh* I was willing to do anything for you, still am. If you'd just let me.. But I'm giving up now not that I want to but that's my only choice.. Cos there's nothing to hold on to anymore. You made it clear that you only want to be friends with me (like that would happen anytime soon), that you want nothing to do with me. And I guess, I should respect that.

Farewell Neverland. Peter Pan already bid goodbye.

'twas like getting hurt the first time. Can't believe that someone can hurt me that much. I was literally cryin' my heart out to him. Fuck, if he thinks that I was begging and all that but I didn't care cos all I want was for him to see me AGAIN. But sadly, all that drama didn't touch him at all.

Cinderella's lost, hoping Prince Charming finds her.

I'll find my way back in time. Thank God I've got friends who never leave me in this moment of distress, who keep me sane all this time.. And because of this.. fuck you all, I'm still looooved after all. :')

P.S I don't blame you.
I only blame myself.
Okay, like it bothers you.
P.P.S I think I'm still gon do the thing. LOL.