Immature

Maturity doesn't come with age talaga. That's how I feel now eh that though I already am 18, sobrang immature ko pa talaga. Siguro not having that much experience and being with just one person are some causes of my immaturity.

You know the feeling that no matter how much you try to be so alive, you still feel lifeless. It's not just depression eh, talagang lifeless. I don't need someone to save me eh, I need myself to save me from me. When I think too much about how my life is, nothing really goes into my head. It's like the only word that pops right out in to my brain is BLANK.

Help.

Most of the time, I focus on things around me rather than thinking of myself first. BALANCE. EQUILIBRIUM. That's what I need.

I'm totally lost although I hate to admit that at times. I need an inspiration. Something that would make me want to go on.

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PROMISE. STARTING NGAYON HINDI NA TALAGA. AS IN HINDI NA. EVER. MA MAGANDA NA ITO. MAGSASAWA AKO. MAGSASAWA DIN AKO.