it's never going to be easy.

Surprisingly, I've never been better. :) It feels super great that I don't think about things too much. It feels so great na hindi ko na siya hinahabol. It feels so damn great to just let things be. :) Ayokong magtanong na ng kahit ano. Honestly, I don't want to know anything anymore. I guess, this would be all for the best. *fingers crossed*

Oh yeah, I also removed the rings na talaga. As in since Sunday, I think. I just don't see the point of still wearing them. Besides siya naman ata 'yung unang nagtanggal. Siya naman ata 'yung hindi talaga nagsusuot. Not that I'm already giving up, there's still a little hope left.

The thing is, ayoko lang na umasa pa.

Anyway, there's this guy na katext ko ng sobrang tagal yesterday. And yes, I got to talk to him as well. Not that I'm expecting a THING from us. We're friends and we're just starting to get to know each other. Besides, ayoko na nga ng long distance relationship. Nyaha. :p

He was a schoolmate back in highschool. He is gwapito & cute. Kaso turn-off ang pagiging hip-hoppish niya slash jologs manamit. I hate guys who wear clothes that are ala 50 cent. Ayoko ng ganon. The simpler style the better. Mas attractive 'yun for me. Intelligence is not an issue as long as the person looks smart naman. Syempre, matino medyo bad guy lang. Gets? :) Haha, ewan. We didn't text though today although kanina nagcchat kami. He calls me PASYENTE/PRINSESA. I don't know why. ;) Concern din siya sakin. And that's the kilig part.

Yes, he makes me smile. But that doesn't mean that I already like him. I guess, masarap lang may aliw aliwin ngayon. Masarap na may nagpapatawa at nag-aalala para sa'yo kahit papano. Pero I won't even entertain the thought that someday magiging kami not because ayaw ko but because I just want to remain friends with him first, to get to know him, to laugh and smile with him. Tska, I don't even know if he likes me too. I mean, likes to like me too. Gets? Baka nag-aassume lang ako dito, diba? :)

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I am wondering how you are now. 2 days lang 'yun but syempre diba? I hope you're okay. I still think about you. You never slip off my mind. Hindi man ako nagtetext pero I want to give you space since you're too pressured with your studies din. Tska, hindi mo din naman ako naaalalang itext diba? Ayoko lang maghabol na. 'YUN YUN.

I miss you.